When I was 13 I felt really hopeless and depressed. Living in a chaotic, alcoholic, abusive household had taken its toll. I was done. I couldn't see what life had to offer me besides what it had already given. One night I was in my room with a razor blade hacking into my wrists. My mom's intuition must have been right on as she opened the door to my room and saw that I was trying to hide the damage. She screamed and yelled, dragged me down to the bathroom to clean my wounds. I hadn't cut deep and I hadn't cut the right direction to warrant a hospital trip. Therefore it was kept as another family secret.
I never tried to commit suicide again. I saw the grief in my parent's eyes and heard my mom screaming in fear and confusion, I realized that I couldn't cause them that kind of pain. I had to find another way to deal with my overwhelming sadness. One evening my parents were fighting and I had to escape, I just couldn't take the negative energy bouncing around the house. So I went outside, sat on the picnic table and cried, when my dog came and sat beside me. I hugged her and started to tell her everything that was wrong. Freckles just looked at me, didn't judge me, didn't talk back or make me feel stupid. At one point she offered me her paw as if to say, "It's OK, I love you." It helped calm me down and for a short time I felt at peace. Until I moved out of the house at 19, Freckles and I had many such chats. It was through her that I learned what unconditional love looked and felt like.
Animals have the ability to heal us through unconditional love. Unlike people, when we share with them our sorrows, they do not absorb the negative energy. When we pet them, our blood pressure goes down, our breathing slows down, and we experience an overall calming feeling. For some of us, pets offer us true unconditional love. Connect your heart chakra to theirs and let the healing begin.
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